worthless

2009.01.15 00.42

Ok. So I figured I'd write in here because I haven't in a while. I'm listening to Paramore's Decode, which is making me want to write. And read/watch Twilight.
I've gotta say, after I read Twilight, and saw the movie, I thought it was good but I still didn't understand the obsession people have with it. I mean, it's a good concept, but it's not really that well written. And Bella is just so obsessive, it's very juvenile. The movie is better, because they make it seem like she only is obsessive after the life-threatening experiance. But even after knowing that they books aren't that great, I still find myself wanting to read them and keep reading them. I want Stephenie Meyer to keep writing these books So i can keep following the story. (Although for the record, I'm a Jacob fan. Who doesn't want a big muscley warm werewolf? Cold is a turnoff). So idk, hopefully when i finish my book and hopefully get it published, it will inspire the same obsession in people.

Anyway, onto another topic. I'm sick. Last night I threw up and had a fever. Woohoo. I feel better today except my stomach is not happy with anything. It's hungry, but it doesn't want me to eat anything. Hopefully I'll lose weight cuz of it, that would be a plus.

I miss Ryan. He's at Alex's house cuz I fell asleep and he thought I wouldn't wake up. And when I don't feel good, I just want to cuddle up and have him kiss my forehead and tell me it's all ok and that I'll feel better soon. I got mad when he called and said he made plans with Alex cuz I was asleep, but now I don't even care. I mean, whatever. I'm sick anyway and my parents didn't want him coming over. I just miss him the most when I feel sad and weak like this. He's my rock, what I can hold onto as a constant in my life.

I'm getting tired again, although I probably won't be able to sleep much. I see Dianne tomorrow though which is good. I jsut have too much to say for only 45 minutes.